Click.Click.Click.Click

I thought I would start this post of with a quick view of how much my little one has changed already.

Less than 1 hour old:

1 day old:
1 month old:

2 months old:

Yep the computer wasn't moved but I figured if the "click click click click" of the guitar hero guitar next to me isn't waking Jossalyn up then I should be remotely safe typing.

Today was one of the hardest days we have had so far. Josiebe is teething already.. yep its crazy I know but its there trying to push through and well she is NOT happy about it. She would go from calm and happy to SCREAMING in pain in a matter of seconds.

She will be with my gram who she will be calling "MeMa" tomorrow while I am at work (11-4) so I am hoping she isn't too much to handle. Then I am off until Tuesday :) horray!

Life as a mommy is getting better, truly it is. As Derek puts it its getting more rewarding each day. She is starting to coo and trying to giggle more and more each day. She is starting to recognize us and our voices and even is starting to smile and look for us if she can't see us while we are talking. I can't say its easy, by god it isn't, and I am not going to lie I don't think its the best thing in the world yet but I can 100% say that I love her! She makes me feel complete.

I don't think I was a normal little girl, I never "dreamed" of my wedding or really ever wanted to be a mommy when I was little but I can say I am so-far happy with the way my life has turned out. Of course there are LOADS of things I would like to change but who doesn't!

Even though Derek thinks resolutions are dumb and says by March everyone forgets about them I have made a few... not really resolutions but guidelines for 2009-

• Go to Church as much as possible. I started this last year but when my morning sickness was at its worst I sorta stopped going so often. I enjoy church but not for the same reasons as most religious people (I am NOT claiming to be religious here) I go because it gives me a sense of "calm" it gives me time to reflect on my life and just to feel at peace even if just for that hour. I am an incredibly stressed person (even before lil' jo) so going to church and feeling that sense of calm is wonderful.

• Eat healthier and drink more water. This is primarily for my milk supply right now bc I am praying I can make it an entire year breastfeeding but sometimes I doubt myself and if I can keep my supply up and even over what I need then it will be easier. Also I want to get healthier and back into shape so I can run around and play with jo when shes a toddler.

• Become financially "somewhat" stable! I hate money, I hate dealing with it, I hate not having it, I hate most of all how irresponsible I am with it!

I pretty much have us on a schedule, well as much of a schedule as a 2 month old can be on. She wakes up anywhere from 8-9 eats and then goes back in her crib for "her time" aka: breakfast for me and/or a shower. Yes 'or' I don't get the luxury of bathing daily right now. Then she usually falls back to sleep after about an hour and will take her morning nap which can be 45min to 2 hrs. She wakes up and she eats every 2 hours. She will take another 1 or 2 afternoon naps but they suck and are usually only 30 mins. She takes (sometimes) a good nighttime nap around 4/5 that can be up to 2 hours. She gets a bath every 2 nights and our nighttime routine starts around 7:30. Its bath, lotion, pj's, eat, read a book, bed. Shes usually done around 9 and is out til morning. Now this isn't stone and by all means she'll throw a wrench in it when I think we are golden and we'll have a bad day but hey its okay.

I don't really have much else to say I'm in a good mood but I have to go put laundry away and I'm gonna go watch Der play some more Guitar Hero before I have to pump and get ready for my own bedtime. No dishes for me to do, Derek did them tonight :)

xoxox