i just want you to be loved... by yourself!

 

In the end you have to love yourself.  I thought about that today and came up with this, 

"Sometimes vanity isn't a bad thing.  It doesn't always have to be cocky & self indulgent.
Sometimes, vanity can just be being happy in your own skin."

While talk with a someone yesterday about self image & self worth I realized it is no longer a shock to hear that someone isn't proud to be themselves.  In our world it is almost expected for a young girl to feel ugly, fat, worthless, stupid ... you name it.  Worse yet if you are on the lucky end of the stick and are proud of being, you, then you are viewed as stuck-up, snotty, bitchy etc.  HOW SAD!  I have always had a few self imagine issues, most having to deal with my weight, but in general I have always pretty much liked being just me!  

I heard someone say once; "She just isn't as sure of herself as you are."  Almost as if that were a bad thing.   How is that our society has put such a stigma on self confidence and has thus glamorized insecurity?  Most women are not a size 2... most are a size 18 however that is now "Plus Sized" and considered fat by many. 

I have good days & bad days just like everyone else.  There are days I wake up and look in the mirror and think, "ugh" and then there are more days that when I look in the mirror I simply just smile.  I can walk out of the house is sweats and a t-shirt just as easily as I can all "dolled up".  I have parts of my body I loath; my stomach & thighs and there are parts I adore; my eyes & lips. 

Someone laughed at me because when Bean looks in the mirror she will either say, "Josie Pretty" or "Josie Perfect".  What is wrong with this?  What is wrong with teaching a little girl from the very beginning that she IS perfect just the way she is? I want nothing but for her to be confident & secure in her own skin.  My family has always given me a hard time with my weight, I know it is out of love & because they want the best for me, but that has really put a toll on my self-esteem.  I will not utterly refuse to allow this to happen to her by her own family.  

I kind of got off my path there, sorry.  Loving yourself isn't just about size & image.  It is about your personality and who you are at your core.

I am a very open, bubbly, people-person, emotional, stressed out but generally happy woman.  I AM ME.  I can not change me.  When I was a little girl my grandfather said to my mom once, "What are we going to do with her?" All because, like now, I talked all the time.  I was energetic and imaginative.  Her answer, "Nothing, that is who she is."  These are traits I see flowing from my little mini-me.  She loves life!  She talks from the moment she wakes until she is ready to fall asleep.  She loves to play with her dolls & anything else that is around.  She loves to pretend she is everything from a butterfly to a bad dragon, rawwr! 

I am ME and that is good enough and I wouldn't want it any other way!!

xoxox

-ME