i ove you mommy

I am a regular reader of several blogs.  Most of them are women with children within a few weeks (older or younger) than Bean.  I came to know these women from an online community that I frequented.  This morning she posted this:  

"A Prayer For My Daughter"

May she always know what she is worth, regardless of whether or not there is a man in her bed telling her so. May she never rationalize abusive behavior out of fear of being alone. May she make the hard choices that she knows in her heart are the right ones. May she love her own company enough that she cherishes her time spent by herself. May she be strong and secure enough that she does not need anyone else to make her feel whole and complete.

May she never settle.

And may I have the foresight and wisdom to raise her as a stronger woman than I will ever be.

I read that an instantly felt a sense of comfort in knowing that someone else wishes the same things for their daughter.  I would just like to add to it:

May she always feel loved and wanted by those who care most about her.  May she always know that she can come to me with the smallest to largest of problems and may she never doubt what she was put on this Earth for, whatever that may be!

 

Sadly, I may not be able to easily say, "I loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you" 

and I will forever have to deal with that; however, now I can say without a shadow of doubt I LOVE YOU more than words can explain.  

I have and am doing everything for you.  Others may not agree but one day when you are old enough to understand and if and when you want to know, I will look at you and tell you everything you need to know and nothing that you shouldn't know.  But I will start with the words I pray you already know...... 

(After I saw the above picture was one of the first times I could admit to myself that I did love you 
and that I was okay with facing the obstacles I knew I would have to 
to give you everything I knew you deserved.)

 

.... I love you my little Bean and your daddy loves you too, no matter what!! 

xoxox

-ME

(**all photos except the side-by-side are by SadieHigs Photography**)