While talking to my lovie (Alex) today I told her that emotions are not always rational. Often times I will know the reality of what is happening; however, I will feel completely different about the situation. My emotions are usually extreme. Very one side or the other. Right now I feel as if my heart is teetering on the edge. Its like watching a piece of glass that has fallen and all you can do is stand and listen as it quickly echos "tink tink tink tink". And your left waiting to see if it shatters into a million pieces or lands safely.
I feel as if my days are spent hitting "refresh" over & over again. Waiting for something different. Waiting for change.
It's amazing to me though that I have ignored my once amazing, freeing, advice and made a new guideline for this situation.
Why? Who is it benefiting?
You? Me? Anyone?
Einstein said, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results"
So why is it that we all do the same things over & over again? Why is it that we allow those around us to do this and not be held accountable? Oh, accountability - a word that some don't even allow into their vocabulary.
Do you ever think back and wonder where everything went wrong??
I do and I know where.... but lets just keep pretending.
I'm done.
I'm done.
xoxox
-ME
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